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[Aug. 19th, 2007 | 09:37 pm] |
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interestingly enough, my social life's getting better, i met Hans and got acquainted with his chef cousin as well. cool dudes. then there was this last minute bbq at Nic's place the night before he left for Perth, after which he and Adrian and I proceeded to poolside at my place and staying there till about 2:30am on a Thurs night... amazed that i woke up early the next morning for work.
there were also movies with the family (Yishan's birthday - Simpsons - 'There are no answers in this book!') and Joel Ong/Mark Seow (Rush 'disappointing ending' Hour 3). also met Kenny yesterday, who is going to Seattle for a couple of years or who knows what may happen for him next.
speaking of Seattle, has been wonderful catching up with Rika (now a New Yorker) over various occasions, feels like we were never gone (girl you know what i mean). and not to forget this one crazy night out with my boys Jerm and Joel Ong....!!! word is getting out on this one so i shall refrain from reinforcing here.....
in other news, KT is back. caught up over breakfast on Sat morning before i went into the office for a couple of hours. poor Vac is stuck in Shanghai, miss the fuzzy white fella, but glad to hear that he's doing well and in good hands.
it gets better.... got my first guit lesson with Joel (Lim) today! rhythm only though, can't wait to get to the lead guit part :P i got Mark's elec guit for the 4 months he'll be in china, thanks bro for offering so readily! it's kinda heavy, but if there's one thing that keeps me going while lugging it about on public transport, it's how cool it feels to be carrying it :P yea rocker chick \m/
me left fingers are aching, am very happy :D thanks Joe, you rock man! (pun not intended but absolutely charming) i'll happily sacrifice the nice nails on my left hand if i can play November Rain and Don't Cry in 1 month... ok la, Don't Cry i think can, but Nov Rain will need 'a bit' more time than that...
shit i think i'm gonna be very tempted to get an amp and all that stuff in due time. or maybe i'll just pay Captain Chiang a visit and rid him of some of his son's junk ;P ;D
me want amp, me want amp, WOOHOO~!! |
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[Jul. 21st, 2007 | 08:53 am] |
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| | Lauren Wood - Fallen | ] |
been spending way too much time at work. starting to take a toll. keep trying to get off at 6:30pm, but always find myself having to stay to finish up things that need to be done by that day. not that i don't enjoy it, i really *really* do. think i'm getting addicted. the further upside is, i'm doing well too. downside? have not been helping out at home, and my friends are probably wondering and perhaps a little irritated that i dropped off the radar..
going back to office later. was pointed out by boss for not completing certain admin tasks. was not done on purpose, simply don't have time to complete. am going to relook my time management. and try to hike up my speed levels. upside for today? colleague whom i've developed a good relationship with is bringing me for a massage!! god knows i need it.. aching in the neck, back and now, back of knees as well. a lot of walking at work. but i think it's the standing in the MRT that really does it.
KT is coming home soon :) with my son!! my furry little white guy. heh. poor thing, has to be in quarantine for 1 month. KT will have to cook porridge for him everyday, since i can't. i'm excited :D |
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[Jul. 16th, 2007 | 12:30 am] |
just back from Dottie's wedding dinner. happy happy~~~~~~ :D caught up with old friends, some i haven't seen in more than 5 years (namely Zip and Pam), some i saw at KM's wedding (Esther, Joel, Jerm, James, and Sam and KM of course) and shared the same table with again (TN, Elaine). was nice. felt less that i'd been away for very long, sort of like catching up from the last time i'd been in their lives on an everyday basis. makes me think of one of the letters that Jacky wrote to me before i left for Canada. just something about old pals.
think Dot's wedding must be the most meaningful and enjoyable one i've been to so far. can i just admit that when she walked down the aisle, i found tears rolling uncontrollably down my cheeks... 10 years of growing up together, through the angsty teenage years, through good times and bad. O levels, A levels, auditioning for choir together, carolling, leading worship together, Student Comm, studying in church, sharing crushes, irritations and other girl talk... when i saw pictures of ourselves in the presentation she had made for just before she walked down the aisle, everything just hit me and swelled up, and that was when it started. and then what Uncle Ronnie (her dad) said in the morning when we were at their house about how we'd grown up together and friends stick together and stuff... it only really just struck me then, that god... we really did grow up together and have known each other for a really long time.... and it's weird, cos somehow it feels like not much has changed, although it really has.
10 years ago we were sitting in the Vineyard, laughing over how she had her entire wedding planned out, just with no groom for the occasion... today and yesterday, she looks so happy, radiant, more grown up, and just so settled. thought she took the entire occasion very well, very mature. so proud of her.
our dear dear Dottie!!! |
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[Jul. 7th, 2007 | 11:51 am] |
Today's weather is fabulous. It's quiet, the lanes in the park are wet with rain that must have fallen while I was still asleep, there's nobody on the streets, and I'm just lying back on my elbows listening to 一路向北 and unlike last week, am actually smiling. Flashbacks of life in Canada/US/Berlin, images of me looking back at myself a la Harvard photo in previous post, and fantasies of what life might be like in the future. Will I go back? Who am I now, and who will I turn out to be?
Here's a summary of sentiments for the past month or so, and what I posted on my Facebook profile today.
July 7, 2007 - Have joined headhunting firm Robert Walters for exactly one month today. Things are pretty exciting at work, though a lot of times I find myself missing life back in Canada and the States. Particularly on the way to work and back... My friends are always on my mind, and I am determined to see them again someday! Right now, the focus is on working hard and earning lots of money, sort of to make up the tough years to my mum. A bit of a compromise on my part, what with all the idealism that I had when I first graduated about wanting to do music or be a penniless artist and all. Then again, I also feel like I'm taking a step in the right direction. Always a struggle for us philosophers. Today I feel like I can't decide which is fantasy, the life now or back then. Will re-examine my life in a couple months' time. |
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[Jul. 2nd, 2007 | 05:35 am] |
been listening to all this music, taking it all in when it really needs to come OUT. right now i'm thinking either tennis or electric guitar. drums would be good to correct my rhythmic idiocies but logistically more difficult. tennis is easy becos got the facilities right below my window, whereas guit/drums is trickier because this will either warrant a return to church, and probably for the wrong reasons...! or a purchase and a place to set up. an alternative take is, tennis difficult cos need people to play with, whereas with guit, it will just be the music, the guit and me.
....why the hell am i up at 4am and unable to sleep.....
we've been thru this such a long long time, just tryin' ta kill the pain
no one's really sure so let it go today.... walkin' away.... |
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[Jun. 10th, 2007 | 01:29 pm] |
hey folks, just to remind all you non-LJ registered homies that i do make many of my posts in private format now, so do register if you want to read. also, i have returned to Singapore!!! yes, for good. well, you never know what might happen but that is the long term plan. what are you waiting for? register and comment now so i can add you to the 'exclusive list'!!! |
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[Dec. 19th, 2006 | 02:59 am] |
it's been one of those weeks where you keep questioning what the hell you're doing here and who the hell you are. you read about people with glamourous jobs and lavish lifestyles, you find out about your friends, who is doing what where, climbing here, earning this, enjoying that... and you think to yourself, damn, if only i had that too... yet on the other hand you know that deep down inside that's not you really want anyway; it's just the values and pressures of society bearing down on you, and you struggle to retain your own stand. the frustration comes when you don't really know what your stand is, who you really want to be.
"I remember one morning getting up at dawn, there was such a sense of possibility. You know, that feeling? And I remember thinking to myself: So, this is the beginning of happiness. This is where it starts. And of course there will always be more. It never occurred to me it wasn't the beginning. It was happiness. It was the moment. Right then. " - Clarissa in The Hours
keep asking myself, what do you want to do, what'll make you happy... and hell, the problem is i don't really seem to know. the beautiful thing about going overseas to study is that you discover all these things about yourself, things that you never thought you were capable of doing. cooking, baking, photography, jewellery, art and design, philosophy, holding parties... well, not that i'm not realizing more such things here in Shanghai. it's just.. well, when i first started learning all these new and fascinating things i could do and more importantly, was good at, i began dreaming big things, the hope for a better and more fulfilling life than ordinary.. i was happy. graduation presented the biggest, single most depressing moment in my life (yeah ironic isn't it), because suddenly i found that i could no longer be all of these things at the same time. I HAD TO CHOOSE. and most likely none of those things.. well, at least not in my life right now.
"You don't have to go to the party, you don't have to go to the ceremony, you don't have to do anything you don't want to do. You can do as you like." "But I still have to face the hours, don't I? I mean, the hours after the party, and the hours after that..." - Clarissa and Richard in The Hours
yeah, some of you will probably say, of COURSE you can still do all those things... but in reality, that's not practical. back to that dastardly word. maybe that's why we all want to become rich, so we don't have to worry about stupid bills and what we're going to eat, and instead, enjoy all those things that we love. enjoy life, people; ENJOY TIME. cos when you're struggling and feeling lost, time is the worst prison of all. |
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[Dec. 18th, 2006 | 11:05 pm] |
two nights ago, i dreamt that i was back in Sec Two. we were having basketball training, Binbin was guarding me and Huibin was on my team. Saudi, Huimin, and Baoling were there too. my god, i was so damn bloody happy, even after i woke up. it was like being plucked out of hell for a day and given morning dew to drink. even went back to class after that, can't rem much about that part though, but it was good.
hai. why do we have to grow up. |
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[Dec. 8th, 2006 | 01:07 am] |
was thinking about how to plan this Christmas celebration for Singaporeans pitched by me and this guy on OverseasSingaporean.com when i totally conked out... when i awoke, the wedding bells had rung and I HAVE THE BEST IDEA for the party EVER: a Casino Royale theme! so in tune with my induction into poker (a couple of months now), with the movie launch and best, the IRs in Singapore, hahaha!!
now i feel like i'm laughing all the way to the bank, hehehe... for once, i'm glad i went all in on the nap. hahaha very punny.. heng i woke up a few hours later.
excited leh! off to work! |
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[Nov. 27th, 2006 | 01:06 pm] |
don't know if it's incompetent people or PMS, but i'm just about ready to tear my hair out today. probably both. think i shouldn't stay too long today, or i just might fire someone. |
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